In the last few days, I’ve noticed that my Beta fish, Berkley, was looking a little under the weather. He’s getting a bit bloated, not eating as much, looking a bit silverish, and not being as active. I made sure he had fresh water, added a little bit of electrolyte stuff to boost his health and still he went down hill. This warranted a visit to the pet store where they told me Betas only live for about one year. His birthday is coming up – ofcourse I don’t know the exact date but I got him late November, early December of last year. This means I will most likely be saying good by to my dear Beta in awhile. This makes me really sad. He’s been such a great pet – fun to watch, easy to care for, hardy and strong, and cheap. 
I enjoy having him around to talk to when I’m around my apartment. He really is fun to watch too with his beautiful fins and funny fighting stance when he thinks his territory is being threatened. Ah well, life moves on.
This along with some other circumstances have made me think about my life and how recently I’ve been hopping around so much. My commitment to many things in the past couple years hasn’t lasted more than a year or two. Specifically the job sector. I keep asking me why that is. Is it just b/c I usually can’t get anything but a part time job so when something better comes a long I jump on it? Is it because I have commitment issues? Is it because I’m afraid, don’t know what I want, or just so unsure that I’m not good at being grounded?
I still haven’t figured that all out yet but as I was leaving the pet store thinking about the impending death of my beautiful Berkley I wondered if I would get a new Beta or a different kind of fish when he dies. Another friend to talk to at home . But then I thought, he’s only going to live a year too, that’s sad. And I pondered the idea of getting a pet that lives longer. Not a cat or dog – too much work and money. I saw the birds and thought, “Now that would be fun.” I know birds live longer than one year and they’re also fun to watch – however, they make noise, not sure how I’d feel about that. The parakeets are only $20 so pretty afordable adn pretty to look at. A certain canary seemed as interested in me as I was in it. But……plans are to move to a different country soon and they probably wouldn’t welcome a bird from another country. Transporting it probably wouldn’t work either. I’m not sure how they would take pressure on a plane. THey’re heads are so small, would they explode form the pressure?
I guess that means either I’ll be petless or back with a Beta……..more to come on this most likely.
