Change…the inevitable. August 29, 2008

It’s been an interesting week.  Full of excitement, happy news, sad news, weird happenings, and much more.  Everyday I go to work I learn something new.  Everyday I see my friends, I learn something new about them.  Constantly learning, constantly changing.  Change is inevitable yet sometimes we try so hard to avoid it.  But if we never change, if we never experience it, if we never see it, if we never join in it, we’ll never grow, we’ll never learn, we’ll never grow closer to our Creator and what He meant for us to be, to see, to experience.

This week I had to watch a video on the “origins of the world”.  It was actually really depressing, I thought.  It explained our origins through evolution; planets crashing into planets, lava spewing, stars and planets aligning.  I began to think, “So if this were it, what’s the point?  We live we die, and according to them someday the earth may not even be here if it supposedly follows mars’ trend and we’ll be nothing but dust.”  So whats the point of caring about my students, why care about my friends and my family when they hurt.  Why be joyful and celebrate the life we’ve been given if it’s all going to end into nothingness?  And how depressing if this is all we get, with all its pain and sadness mixed in. Then I felt a rush of the Spirit and I knew God was telling me, “Don’t be silly, there’s so much more!”  I was thinking, the people who wrote this video would think I’m crazy, some lunatic spiritualist that feels things unseen and believes in the unprovable.  Ha!  Maybe but I’m convinced God is there!  I see so much proof!  So much evidence!  My ideas on our origins are no more far-fetched than theirs.  And how amazing that we have a Creator that loves us!  My life would be dead without His love.  I could go into evidence in the fossils, evidence in creation, but for me all I need is His Spirit living inside of me to convince me that He’s here. My brain still questions, my heart still doubts at times but His reassurance is ever-present.  I ask Him why the equator moves, why the position fo the planets change but maybe that’s just one more way He’s keeping us on our toes, keeping us looking for answers, looking for Him.  If nothing ever changed, how complacent and boring our lives would become!!!

The Artist Within August 24, 2008

Fortunately, art is a community effort – a small but select community livng in a spiritualized world endeavoring to interpret the wars and the solitudes of the flesh.  — Allen Ginsberg

I think Mr. Ginsberg makes a good point but I don’t believe it has to be that way.  I think everyone has an artist within whether they realize it or not.  They just have to find a way to let the artist within come out and express itself.

City on a Hill? August 24, 2008

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I was looking through my Lebanon pics one night and came across some fav’s.

Jesus might have walked along this same hill and basqued in this same view. When he looked at these hills did he see their future? Did he think about what was to come, the people who would travel the winding paths, the villagers living on that hill now, did he think about me, standing there gazing at the same scene his eyes could see? When he talked about a city on a hill, did he think of M…..n and the “lights” there now?
When you’re in such a place for such a short time it’s easy to stay focused on the goal…..not so easy when you’re in your comfort zone, living day to day. It’s so easy for me to not think about other people and just be selfish and think of myself. It’s so easy for me to worry about money, the present, the future, the past, and not hand it over to my Father.
I wish I could wake up each morning and gaze over these hills and refocus. But, maybe if I was there, they would become my everyday, my “comfort zone”. Oh, that my eyes would always be trained on him.